Tis the season, eh.
I'm not depressed or even deeply unhappy - my mojo has just gone for a long walk - and clearly with far less painful knees than I am suffering with at the moment. I'm simply unmotivated, lethargic and a headful of ideas and aims and no will to implement.
Rather than depressing its rather vexing. I am also the Goddess of Procrastination. Oh, yes I am! I had a plan to do a simple healthy detox this month; eating lots of homemade healthy soups, fresh fruit and veggies and drinking lots more water. Is it happening? Nope, why, because I've got it into my head I need to get myself a microwave first.. and then I also got it into my head that my 6.5lt slow cooker is too big and I need a 1.5lt one. Hmmm. Microwave, yes handy, slow cooker to be honest, my large one has two compartments, so I can actually cook a small portion that would probably last a day or two, so no I don't need the 1.5lt one.
It is also vexing because oh my gawd, my knees hurt. Ever twisted your ankle.. that excruciating pain of trying to put your weight on the injured ankle.. my knees are very reminiscent of that - and vexing because a couple of weeks I would undoubtedly loose enough to improve the pain really quite dramatically - but guess what....
I did ask the doctor if there was any pain relief I could take so I would feel more inclined to walk and just generally be more active; but he said painkillers have rather serious side effects and rather encouraged me not to over do activity and to loose weight.
Yes, but you see, Dr, I am the Goddess of Procrastination.
Loose weight, sounds so simple; but I've been trying to do this for the past 30 years (I'm 36, my mother had me on diets from a young age), and I'm heavier than I've ever been. Do you know I eye up those mobility scooters with serious wantsies. A bloody mobility scooter.
Hmm actually a microwave would be very handy. PROCRASTINATOR!
Yes, yes, but it would, so I shall go and now cancel the 1.5litre slow cooker order and instead order a microwave.
Hey and in the morning, I will be walking Rye to nursery and then picking him up again at lunch time. I expect to be crawling up the stairs in agony by the evening - but hey that's one of the downsides of being the Goddess of Procrastination.